what can i say?
i dunno what to say.

what can i do?
i dunno what to do.

how can i express?
i dunno how to express.

so this is the expression i give.
so 无奈。

happy 11th month, sis

好久没和你说话了
好久没见到你了
你还好吗？

我想我们俩的距离也疏远了吧？
但回忆还留在脑海里
是不会消失的
除非我失忆了

i dread to go to sch tmrw
ha why would i walk to this stage

why i ever want to even teach?
nvr is my ambition

Inspire. Be a Teacher.
TEACH.

now let me rearrange the word.
H- how
T- to
E- educate
A- a
C- child
How to educate a child?

i need someone to TEACH me pls.
it seems so hard, no, its actually hard
i feel like giving up.

i think it's really time
the feeling is coming back again
i feel i'm worthless
even if i'm here or not
it doesn't really matter anymore
cos i just felt this way.

i'm very tired.

Both thinking that other is busy and will not contact each other,
thinking it might be disturbing to the other party.

As time passes,
both will think
"let the other one contact me first."

After some time, each will think
" Why should i contact first?"

From here onwards,
not wanting to contact each other
the friendship will start to drift apart...
Further and Further.

Finally, the memory becomes weak
due to lack of contact.

And we forget each other?

ha. i'm sick... again.
this yr sick alot of times le.
it's only like half the yr and every month i bound to be sick.
fever, flu, sore throat all come together....
and here we go again
feeling very 辛苦 now.

i dunno what i'm feeling.
i'm just too complicated.
cant i just be a little more simple?
or can things be simpler?

but i'm feeling very empty too.
body, mind and soul.

When we last chatted?
1 mth ago
and we never talk again.
Not even a single word.
aren't we cool.

Learn to forgive and forget.
i should have long learn.
but will it really make my life happier?
i should think so.
and i think i have learnt.
but am i happier?
even if i do so.

学怎么原谅和忘记
我早该学会
但学会了，人生会活得更快乐吗?
我想会吧。
我想我现在已学会了
但我真的快乐了吗？

happy 10th month,sis

I really dun feel good.
Starting to think i made the wrong choice again.
Why do i always make wrong choices?
and always finding trouble for myself.

Is there anything that i can do to make myself better?
cos i'm feeling shit again.

happy 9th month, sis

What's the purpose of life?
When will i die?
I did a quiz and it said that i will die pretty soon..
In 2015 and a car accident!
I may die in a terribly ugly state?
So if really that's the case, i will only have 6 yrs more to live.

Will people feel sad when i die?
Will people even know of my worth?
Will people even care?
Will people even shed a tear for me?

Treasure all the things you have now
Be contented and stop grumbling
express what u feel to the people u care
let them know
before it's too late
by then when slp takes me away 4ever
i will not be able to do so or to know that ppl cared

cos life's just short and unpredictable

My temper is getting from bad to worst!
I feel so frustrated!
so sick and tired of all the things around.
I flare my temper
so damn F**K
Arghh. Kill me
i need to breathe

Well, communication is a 2 way process.
Even if i tried so hard
so What?
It's all meaningless.
I'm giving up

我只想当妹妹

五年后，再回到我曾经那么熟悉的地方。

感觉是那么地微妙，那么地兴奋和那么点儿担心。

我想我回去的其中一个原因是因为-你。

但我们总是那么地没有缘分。

我好不容易才来了，你却要离开了。

我以为我再也不向以前那么地在乎你了。

但我错了，再一次见到你，我知道你还是在我心中有个位置。

过了那么久，始终没改变。

你要离开了，我真的不知要哭还是要笑。

我只知道我会舍不得。

但我真心祝福你在新的环境里会比在这里更加更加地开心‘ 快乐

有缘再见吧！

Goodbye.

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