天空间飘来的雨
滴滴洒落在我心里
大雨就要开始不停的下
该不该躲这场雨
我的心已经完全的没有主张
我的心已经完全的失去方向
带我到没有爱情的地方
Friday, October 10, 2008
Saturday, October 04, 2008
Thursday, October 02, 2008
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
surprisingly,
this long break
i did not really have post production blues
which i always had for the past few ones
also not really eager to go back
i feel nothing
is this good or bad?
and is this an indication that i'm really over and done with it?
i've to sort my thoughts out
it's always complicated
maybe one day... one day
when i really know what i want, how i feel
this long break
i did not really have post production blues
which i always had for the past few ones
also not really eager to go back
i feel nothing
is this good or bad?
and is this an indication that i'm really over and done with it?
i've to sort my thoughts out
it's always complicated
maybe one day... one day
when i really know what i want, how i feel
Thursday, September 25, 2008
if i'm granted 3 wishes,
i dun want frame
i dun want wealth
i dun want all the things that is a want but not a need
i just needed a little more understanding, care and patience from people
i just needed all my loved ones, family and frens to be healthy and happy always
i just needed to lead a simple and ordinary yet happy life and lived life to the fullest.
i dun want frame
i dun want wealth
i dun want all the things that is a want but not a need
i just needed a little more understanding, care and patience from people
i just needed all my loved ones, family and frens to be healthy and happy always
i just needed to lead a simple and ordinary yet happy life and lived life to the fullest.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
i'm just simple
i trust people quite easily
i dun ask for much
i wont ask why no reply my sms
i wont sms again
cos the reason's so clear
i'm not at all important to even let u spare a sec to return an sms.
how hard can replying a sms be?
i really dunno.
it really shows it all.
and it's abit hurting after all
cos i cared.
i've learnt to be contented with whatever i have
and not hoping for anything else
at least now i wont hope for things that will never come true
i trust people quite easily
i dun ask for much
i wont ask why no reply my sms
i wont sms again
cos the reason's so clear
i'm not at all important to even let u spare a sec to return an sms.
how hard can replying a sms be?
i really dunno.
it really shows it all.
and it's abit hurting after all
cos i cared.
i've learnt to be contented with whatever i have
and not hoping for anything else
at least now i wont hope for things that will never come true
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
When u put in too much feelings
u can get angry and disappointed even over the smallest things ever.
just becos u din get what u expected it to be in return.
just becos u are too silly.
just becos u cared too much.
we already know
we are actually not that close even from the start
our worlds dun really meet somehow
we have much differences, i know
we dun hav much chemistry together
but i really felt close
for that once
our paths did cross
didn't we?
or maybe i was wrong?
but i really enjoyed the time spent
and the fun we both had
even for the short period of time
the memories still so clear
i'll always remember
even if the smallest details
even if u ever 4get
u can get angry and disappointed even over the smallest things ever.
just becos u din get what u expected it to be in return.
just becos u are too silly.
just becos u cared too much.
we already know
we are actually not that close even from the start
our worlds dun really meet somehow
we have much differences, i know
we dun hav much chemistry together
but i really felt close
for that once
our paths did cross
didn't we?
or maybe i was wrong?
but i really enjoyed the time spent
and the fun we both had
even for the short period of time
the memories still so clear
i'll always remember
even if the smallest details
even if u ever 4get
Sunday, September 14, 2008
It all ended.
Putting a full stop.
Hope it was a beautiful ending.
All the rehearsals, the hard work, the commitments and the time given by everyone.
We all know the time's tight, more extra time that we needed to spare
The many more days and hours of trainings.
Making us physically tired out and aching all over.
We all know the frustrations, the little arguments, the fun & laughters, the happinesses & unhappiness.
And the many nicknames i had for this exp. I actually quite like the new name: Catherine Danielle Chua. Ha
________________________________________________________________
It was the actual performance finally.
It was all too soon.
The prayer and cheer before the performance.
Giving one another moral supports.
From the first dance till the last.
The dim of the stage lights.
The applauses from the audiences.
The last bow on Victoria Theatre's stage.
The happy screams at the end of the performance
a relief.
It all ended just like that.
________________________________________________________________
A very big thank you for all the dancers.
Each and everyone.
We spent so much time together.
We have come so far together.
I know i gotta miss you people.
Putting a full stop.
Hope it was a beautiful ending.
All the rehearsals, the hard work, the commitments and the time given by everyone.
We all know the time's tight, more extra time that we needed to spare
The many more days and hours of trainings.
Making us physically tired out and aching all over.
We all know the frustrations, the little arguments, the fun & laughters, the happinesses & unhappiness.
And the many nicknames i had for this exp. I actually quite like the new name: Catherine Danielle Chua. Ha
________________________________________________________________
It was the actual performance finally.
It was all too soon.
The prayer and cheer before the performance.
Giving one another moral supports.
From the first dance till the last.
The dim of the stage lights.
The applauses from the audiences.
The last bow on Victoria Theatre's stage.
The happy screams at the end of the performance
a relief.
It all ended just like that.
________________________________________________________________
A very big thank you for all the dancers.
Each and everyone.
We spent so much time together.
We have come so far together.
I know i gotta miss you people.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Sunday, September 07, 2008
Well, left only 1 wk and we'll mark the end our performance on Victoria Theatre's Stage.
The months of trainings,
the efforts and time we committed in
the fun and the bad times
the happy and bad moods
the frustrations and all
the little arguments on the dance steps
and the timing to come to make props
the little injuries here and there
we had them all together
the team work from all of us
at the end when we hear the applause from the audiences,
we know in our hearts
the efforts we put in
they were worth it
really hope that it will be a good one.
everything will be well and good
but when we mark the end of the whole performance
i know i'll miss the time when we were so busy training
although very tiring
but i enjoy the time spent with all the people
the laughters, the complaints, the happy times
it's so ironic
well, now jiayou ba!
later then have my post production blues.
and i'll slowly recover.
The months of trainings,
the efforts and time we committed in
the fun and the bad times
the happy and bad moods
the frustrations and all
the little arguments on the dance steps
and the timing to come to make props
the little injuries here and there
we had them all together
the team work from all of us
at the end when we hear the applause from the audiences,
we know in our hearts
the efforts we put in
they were worth it
really hope that it will be a good one.
everything will be well and good
but when we mark the end of the whole performance
i know i'll miss the time when we were so busy training
although very tiring
but i enjoy the time spent with all the people
the laughters, the complaints, the happy times
it's so ironic
well, now jiayou ba!
later then have my post production blues.
and i'll slowly recover.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
It's raining outside.
A little heavy i would say.
Windows wide open
looking out of the window
all i see is rain water pouring down
and cool wind blowing in.
i used to like taking a stroll in the rain
let the rain splash down
right from my head to toes
wash away my troubles and worries
get a little drenched
get a little sick
A little heavy i would say.
Windows wide open
looking out of the window
all i see is rain water pouring down
and cool wind blowing in.
i used to like taking a stroll in the rain
let the rain splash down
right from my head to toes
wash away my troubles and worries
get a little drenched
get a little sick
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Lighten up!
No matter how bad things may or may not be right now,
there is plenty of stuff in life that one can celebrate.
Stop dwelling on the worries and the woes that have been swirling around the head lately.
Flip through some old photos and have a good laugh and recall all the fond memories.
Buy many cups of different flavor bubble tea and drink them all by myself!
Just be silly and avoid thinking too deep into your own thoughts.
And life will be easier and happier.
No matter how bad things may or may not be right now,
there is plenty of stuff in life that one can celebrate.
Stop dwelling on the worries and the woes that have been swirling around the head lately.
Flip through some old photos and have a good laugh and recall all the fond memories.
Buy many cups of different flavor bubble tea and drink them all by myself!
Just be silly and avoid thinking too deep into your own thoughts.
And life will be easier and happier.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
In the darkest hours
When you can't take it anymore
And all of the light just fades away
Just like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Take each step one day at a time
Let live and let live forget and forgive
It's all how you see it
And just remember keep it together
I can make it
Sometime soon I know I'll see
I'm not defeated
And soon I'll be smiling once again
Then I won't have to feel it
Let it go with the wind
Time passes us by
And know that I'm allowed to cry
and grow strong
When you can't take it anymore
And all of the light just fades away
Just like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Take each step one day at a time
Let live and let live forget and forgive
It's all how you see it
And just remember keep it together
I can make it
Sometime soon I know I'll see
I'm not defeated
And soon I'll be smiling once again
Then I won't have to feel it
Let it go with the wind
Time passes us by
And know that I'm allowed to cry
and grow strong
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone
Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong
Sometimes I feel so frail so small
Sometimes I feel vulnerable
Sometimes I feel a little fragile
A little fragile
If people can see right through my eyes
Like an open door that I can't disguise
I won't be afraid from the tears I cry
I'll not run.
I'll not hide.
this is how I feel inside
Sometimes I feel a little fragile
A little fragile
Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong
Sometimes I feel so frail so small
Sometimes I feel vulnerable
Sometimes I feel a little fragile
A little fragile
If people can see right through my eyes
Like an open door that I can't disguise
I won't be afraid from the tears I cry
I'll not run.
I'll not hide.
this is how I feel inside
Sometimes I feel a little fragile
A little fragile
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Giving someone all your love is never an
assurance that they'll love you back.
Don't expect love in return;
just wait for it to grow in their heart
but if it doesn't,
be contented that it grew in yours.
It takes only a minute
to get a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone,
and a day to love someone,
but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
I wont say it out
I wont really show
I wont really express
and you will never know
that i actually care.
Seeing the tears dropping down
felt the pain u felt at that moment
the impact must be really hard
but I can do nothing
what's done cannot be undone
i cant turn back the time
and stop the hit
just hope that it wont swell tmrw
please go rub some oil
and take care of yourself, auntie.
I wont really show
I wont really express
and you will never know
that i actually care.
Seeing the tears dropping down
felt the pain u felt at that moment
the impact must be really hard
but I can do nothing
what's done cannot be undone
i cant turn back the time
and stop the hit
just hope that it wont swell tmrw
please go rub some oil
and take care of yourself, auntie.
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Something which makes life so lifeless and boring
Good comments Bad comments
Employed or Fired
Back stabbers, politics
Pretenders wearing fake masks everywhere
It's all devils
and you have to pretend too
wearing a fake mask once you step in
really too tired wearing this kind of mask
It's just to earn yourself a living
why make life so hard on yourself and for others?
it is just for the sake of a living isn't it?
Working so hard just to earn as much while you can
and gives yourself so much stress and pressure
what about health?
earn so much also cannot bury with you in the coffin
People matters more than the work you needed to do
If the people are nice, work not that easy
The people will help one another and gives support
ends the day with some comfort and smiles
and everything will be just fine
Work.
cos you HAVE to.
cos you NEED to.
Good comments Bad comments
Employed or Fired
Back stabbers, politics
Pretenders wearing fake masks everywhere
It's all devils
and you have to pretend too
wearing a fake mask once you step in
really too tired wearing this kind of mask
It's just to earn yourself a living
why make life so hard on yourself and for others?
it is just for the sake of a living isn't it?
Working so hard just to earn as much while you can
and gives yourself so much stress and pressure
what about health?
earn so much also cannot bury with you in the coffin
People matters more than the work you needed to do
If the people are nice, work not that easy
The people will help one another and gives support
ends the day with some comfort and smiles
and everything will be just fine
Work.
cos you HAVE to.
cos you NEED to.
Some just past by you
some will stay alittle longer
some are there right from the start
some may just be forgotten
some are always there but never get to notice
and some never really cared but suddenly
slowly touches you little by little as time goes by
and makes you start to care
People come and people go.
Did you ever wonder why do these people come into our lives?
and how beautifully from strangers to friends?
Staying for years and years in your life.
talking abt secrets and sharing all the little things and never hide
just to be there, to give you a pat and say everything will be alright.
some will stay alittle longer
some are there right from the start
some may just be forgotten
some are always there but never get to notice
and some never really cared but suddenly
slowly touches you little by little as time goes by
and makes you start to care
People come and people go.
Did you ever wonder why do these people come into our lives?
and how beautifully from strangers to friends?
Staying for years and years in your life.
talking abt secrets and sharing all the little things and never hide
just to be there, to give you a pat and say everything will be alright.
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Friday, August 01, 2008
i can feel that u were so afraid that i anyhow browse through ur hp.
so scared that i go into somewhere i am not supposed to see.
i got no intention to browse anywhere
cos i know is personal
just wanted to help explore
but still...
i shld not have
i did notice
but i did not want to say
driving but kept looking in my direction
or maybe i'm too sensitive
guess u din trust me
Thank you.
so scared that i go into somewhere i am not supposed to see.
i got no intention to browse anywhere
cos i know is personal
just wanted to help explore
but still...
i shld not have
i did notice
but i did not want to say
driving but kept looking in my direction
or maybe i'm too sensitive
guess u din trust me
Thank you.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Teach me to be happy go lucky
Teach me to let go of things easily
Teach me to keep my cool
Teach me to take things easy
Teach me to keep a smile on the face
Teach me to be good tempered
Teach me to feel happiness
Teach me not to think so much into things
Teach me not to be too emotional
Teach me not to be stress
Teach me not to have mood swings
Think i'm too confused. Need to have a good slp.
Teach me to let go of things easily
Teach me to keep my cool
Teach me to take things easy
Teach me to keep a smile on the face
Teach me to be good tempered
Teach me to feel happiness
Teach me not to think so much into things
Teach me not to be too emotional
Teach me not to be stress
Teach me not to have mood swings
Think i'm too confused. Need to have a good slp.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
No one's perfect
I know I'm certainly not.
I have more weaknesses than strength that i can count.
I have frequent mood swings now and then
Lately, i kept quiet most of the time
lost interest in anything
I need to have a higher tolerance level
be it anything
I need to be more good tempered
I seriously have to change
I cant get a grip of my own mood
I know it's hard to get along with someone
whose mood swings often, like me
I myself feel hard to get along with myself
I really need to sort things out
talk to my soul, feel my heart
It's really time to grow
I know I'm certainly not.
I have more weaknesses than strength that i can count.
I have frequent mood swings now and then
Lately, i kept quiet most of the time
lost interest in anything
I need to have a higher tolerance level
be it anything
I need to be more good tempered
I seriously have to change
I cant get a grip of my own mood
I know it's hard to get along with someone
whose mood swings often, like me
I myself feel hard to get along with myself
I really need to sort things out
talk to my soul, feel my heart
It's really time to grow
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
The words that i underlined, simple yet so meaningful.
In this busy life, we hardly have time to stop and take a break,
take some time, even jus a sec,
take a look at ur loved ones,
take a look at ur frens,
take a look at the people around u,
take a look at the world again
maybe u can feel the beauty of a smile,
maybe u can feel the warmth of a touch
maybe u can feel the bliss of simply watching the world go by.
just keep silence and start listening
a little care, concern & understanding
a little patience
sparing some time
at some point of time
maybe will mean so much to someone
life isnt really that beautiful
with all the ups and downs
the hurts and scars
but we grow from them.
colours are added into our lives somehow
although not always
but
at some points of time
different parts of our lives
somewhere, somehow
take a deep breath
leave all the downs, regrets, sadness
its going to be a beautiful new day again
live life the way u want it to be
try is all i can say
make the impossible possible
before
its too late
when
slp finally takes us away forever.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
this 20+ years in my life
hi and bye frens,
i have alot
alot, indeed...
ppl see me as i have lots of friends.
every now and then i see familiar faces
saying a hi, giving a smile and a bye.
BUT
having someone who can talk to,
sharing my probs,
sharing my happiness,
sharing my unhappiness,
sharing my worries,
giving me some comfort when i needed most
lending me a listening ear
Giving me a hug when i cry
taking away my fears,
staying by my side a little longer when i'm down
understanding me that i'm not perfect
knowing that i'm just me
feeling how i feels
i know everyone will be saying:
i'm busy(a word that i hate!)
i have lots of things to handle myself too
i have my own probs too
but i think is all excuses
But give a thought,
if the person is impt to u
will u say u are too busy and dun care?
it is just where the person stands in ur heart
if u really care
no matter what
just a simple sms will be more than enough
just spending a few secs is enough
maybe i'm a person
who do not know how to express myself well?
out of frequency with the others?
hard to get along?
hard to understand?
hard to compromise?
or
maybe i'm asking too much
maybe i'm too demanding
maybe i'm too emotional
maybe i'm real no good
nothing good in anyways
a living thing that takes up space on earth
what a waste
so in the end
i have no one
F.R.I.E.N.D
a word
that
i still have many doubts.
Will u be there?
if i needed someone,
anyone who cares
being a friend?
i guess i still have not found.
i think i can never find.
someone close to heart.
i'm just some weirdo person.
the me u are seeing,
what if i say i've been faking,
sometimes i dun even know who am i
losing touch of my soul
always appearing to be like not caring
and always appearing to be strong
even when i feel hurts
i also have my ups and downs
but
i pretended
do u know how i'm feeling inside?
i'm tired.
i'm a loner.
where shld i go
and who shld i turn too?
i think i'm shutting all doors.
cos i dun believe anymore
i think i need a good cry
and everything will be fine?
for those who had real good frens, close frens, bestie girlfrens, best best fren or true fren
i really envy from deepest of my heart
may all ur friendships blossoms till the end of life
and treasure them,
b4 u know it
they are gone
friendships, like relationships,
need to be 2 sided,
giving and taking for both parties
and there will surely be
1 giving more, taking less
and 1 taking more, giving less
or maybe not giving but taking
but i surely understand
1 sided will never work
feeling down thus such an emotional post.
i will feel better.
hi and bye frens,
i have alot
alot, indeed...
ppl see me as i have lots of friends.
every now and then i see familiar faces
saying a hi, giving a smile and a bye.
BUT
having someone who can talk to,
sharing my probs,
sharing my happiness,
sharing my unhappiness,
sharing my worries,
giving me some comfort when i needed most
lending me a listening ear
Giving me a hug when i cry
taking away my fears,
staying by my side a little longer when i'm down
understanding me that i'm not perfect
knowing that i'm just me
feeling how i feels
i know everyone will be saying:
i'm busy(a word that i hate!)
i have lots of things to handle myself too
i have my own probs too
but i think is all excuses
But give a thought,
if the person is impt to u
will u say u are too busy and dun care?
it is just where the person stands in ur heart
if u really care
no matter what
just a simple sms will be more than enough
just spending a few secs is enough
maybe i'm a person
who do not know how to express myself well?
out of frequency with the others?
hard to get along?
hard to understand?
hard to compromise?
or
maybe i'm asking too much
maybe i'm too demanding
maybe i'm too emotional
maybe i'm real no good
nothing good in anyways
a living thing that takes up space on earth
what a waste
so in the end
i have no one
F.R.I.E.N.D
a word
that
i still have many doubts.
Will u be there?
if i needed someone,
anyone who cares
being a friend?
i guess i still have not found.
i think i can never find.
someone close to heart.
i'm just some weirdo person.
the me u are seeing,
what if i say i've been faking,
sometimes i dun even know who am i
losing touch of my soul
always appearing to be like not caring
and always appearing to be strong
even when i feel hurts
i also have my ups and downs
but
i pretended
do u know how i'm feeling inside?
i'm tired.
i'm a loner.
where shld i go
and who shld i turn too?
i think i'm shutting all doors.
cos i dun believe anymore
i think i need a good cry
and everything will be fine?
for those who had real good frens, close frens, bestie girlfrens, best best fren or true fren
i really envy from deepest of my heart
may all ur friendships blossoms till the end of life
and treasure them,
b4 u know it
they are gone
friendships, like relationships,
need to be 2 sided,
giving and taking for both parties
and there will surely be
1 giving more, taking less
and 1 taking more, giving less
or maybe not giving but taking
but i surely understand
1 sided will never work
feeling down thus such an emotional post.
i will feel better.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
erm think i'm bad
keep saying 'ur best fren' and all stuffs
i will stop.
really...
if i were the 'best fren',
i will feel sad when i get to find out
so no more stuffs like this, CAT!!!
stop hurting ppl indirectly.
but best fren's good
i'm truthful
cos best fren
u'll at least remember
at least u'll think of her
and care.
keep saying 'ur best fren' and all stuffs
i will stop.
really...
if i were the 'best fren',
i will feel sad when i get to find out
so no more stuffs like this, CAT!!!
stop hurting ppl indirectly.
but best fren's good
i'm truthful
cos best fren
u'll at least remember
at least u'll think of her
and care.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Friday, June 06, 2008
Met with 1 of my sec sch fren tonite.Went to eat dinner somewhere near my work place
We ordered lots of food and we had to clear all
if not we will get extra charges
Played scissors, paper, stone
Who looses, finish up the plate of food
We are always so kuku
abit childish like we were still back in sec sch
i remembered we played scissors, paper, stone also
but who looses got to get beaten on the hand
then played till hand were red, hot and pain
those were the times...
After dinner,
din wanna go home yet
thought of drinking vodka
so went to look for places where they sell
search high and low,
most shops already closed
then finally found it
We bought vodka and then a bag of ice
the auntie asked for IC cos thought we not 18 yet
then sat near the roadside
tried hard to open the lid of the vodka using Keys!
cos we 4got to ask the auntie to open for us
but anyway
we managed to open it..
although a very small cut on the finger
we were high even b4 we started drinking
spent the nite under the city lights
little night breeze blowing on our faces while we were chatting
then head back home.
i think i need to have a little more of this kind of nites
to really let go of myself
but i wont go pubbing
well, goodnite, now is already 12 plus in the morning.
i'm tired
really
and got to work and dance tmrw
hope i can wake and get through the long day...
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
3rd day of Work and i kena fire drill.
fire drill reminds me of my sec sch days!
Happening rite?
42 storey of ppl coming down by the stairs...
lucky i not at very high level
imagine if real fire,
b4 i can climb down to the 1st,
i think i already fainted or already burnt
think dat time is jump off building and say good bye le
not too bad
had a stroll to the evacuation area
some distance away from office
the whole grp of ppl crossing the road like nobody's business
all wearing working wear
lots of trees at the place where we were
lots of small flying creatures u can find in the parks
grasses with soft mud at some areas
then shoes sinking in, esp those ladies with heels.
then the whole building ppl there chatting and ignore the person giving instructions
cos is just a drill, not the real thing
BUT
what if a real fire occurs?
u never know
will u still react the same?
Life's so unpredictable
maybe i will slp to my death
and never wake up again?
what a day...
it another tired day
i think i still haven get used to the working days
how i hope to receive a sms frm u rite now at this moment...
fire drill reminds me of my sec sch days!
Happening rite?
42 storey of ppl coming down by the stairs...
lucky i not at very high level
imagine if real fire,
b4 i can climb down to the 1st,
i think i already fainted or already burnt
think dat time is jump off building and say good bye le
not too bad
had a stroll to the evacuation area
some distance away from office
the whole grp of ppl crossing the road like nobody's business
all wearing working wear
lots of trees at the place where we were
lots of small flying creatures u can find in the parks
grasses with soft mud at some areas
then shoes sinking in, esp those ladies with heels.
then the whole building ppl there chatting and ignore the person giving instructions
cos is just a drill, not the real thing
BUT
what if a real fire occurs?
u never know
will u still react the same?
Life's so unpredictable
maybe i will slp to my death
and never wake up again?
what a day...
it another tired day
i think i still haven get used to the working days
how i hope to receive a sms frm u rite now at this moment...
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Work Work Work...
My Work place really forbids every single site that allows chats..
MSN, Google Talk, IM, Ebuddy, Skype, Web messenger, all that i know of
i tried all the sites but all Forbidden!
Haiz... I cant chat la from 8.30-6
then go home thInk too tired and lazy to online anymore
And now that i'm new and still have lots of things to learn,
also i still have no access to the database of the system
cos i need to do security test first
which they have not send
before they can send me the password to access
so i'm thrown to read 3 stacks of operational manual
then read whatever links found in the co. intranet
stone abit here and there
cos now still honeymoon period
and then nightmare will come
chasing after me
but
i'm starting to fear that i cant cope with the work
even though its just the 2nd day
the people there are just doing work non stop
and they are so experienced!
i cant even differentiate the different cases which u all can sort with just 1 look.
so many things to learn!
and i think i need time
all things have to start from new
learn is all i can say
there is nothing that u say u dunno how to do and u can dun do it
what more to say when u are at work
so i needa learn
The people there are quite nice
but all are busy
need to get to know ppl better
but slowly la
and there's this pretty lady who wears the same perfume as u
the similar scent
when she passed by me after photocopying things
thanks for msging me goodnight last nite and a good start today
u wont know that little simple sms frm u can make me a little more happy after a long tired day...
My Work place really forbids every single site that allows chats..
MSN, Google Talk, IM, Ebuddy, Skype, Web messenger, all that i know of
i tried all the sites but all Forbidden!
Haiz... I cant chat la from 8.30-6
then go home thInk too tired and lazy to online anymore
And now that i'm new and still have lots of things to learn,
also i still have no access to the database of the system
cos i need to do security test first
which they have not send
before they can send me the password to access
so i'm thrown to read 3 stacks of operational manual
then read whatever links found in the co. intranet
stone abit here and there
cos now still honeymoon period
and then nightmare will come
chasing after me
but
i'm starting to fear that i cant cope with the work
even though its just the 2nd day
the people there are just doing work non stop
and they are so experienced!
i cant even differentiate the different cases which u all can sort with just 1 look.
so many things to learn!
and i think i need time
all things have to start from new
learn is all i can say
there is nothing that u say u dunno how to do and u can dun do it
what more to say when u are at work
so i needa learn
The people there are quite nice
but all are busy
need to get to know ppl better
but slowly la
and there's this pretty lady who wears the same perfume as u
the similar scent
when she passed by me after photocopying things
thanks for msging me goodnight last nite and a good start today
u wont know that little simple sms frm u can make me a little more happy after a long tired day...
Friday, May 30, 2008
If you don't try to go after what you want, you'll regret,
If you don't try to ask, the answer is always unrevealed .
If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place
so I go after what i wanted
so I asked
so I took a step forward
but i think i would rather stay in the same place as before.
i shouldn't...
If you don't try to ask, the answer is always unrevealed .
If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place
so I go after what i wanted
so I asked
so I took a step forward
but i think i would rather stay in the same place as before.
i shouldn't...
Thursday, May 29, 2008
虽然我愿意
请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
心还想着你
-----A very nice song.
请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
心还想着你
-----A very nice song.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
i always wanted an elder sister
i really want...
i envy ppl who has elder sister
one who can dote on me
one who at least have that little care for me
someone to talk to
share my probs, happiness, sadness
give me a hug when i'm down
comfort me in times
play with me
when i cant get into slp
sleeping in the same room
jokes and little secrets
going out together
sharing the many things
take care of me
this had been in my heart for some time
i'm not a touchy person
but i just love the feel of holding ur hand
but not many times
we get the chance holding hands
but everytime
ur hand in mine
it never fails to give me the sisterly feel
that i always were looking for
so protected
so comfortable
not anyone can give me this feeling
but u did.
Still remember,
the trip,
during the performance
backstage where lots of ppl
we needed to pass through to get to the other side of the stage
u grabbed my hand
and lead me safely to the place that we need to standby
pushing through the lots of people
still hand in hand
i'm touched
seriously.
Maybe u felt nothing but
that little act
it really warms my heart
and means something to me.
i wont tell u in person
cos i dunno how to put this across
and maybe is this
that made me care a little more about u
i really want...
i envy ppl who has elder sister
one who can dote on me
one who at least have that little care for me
someone to talk to
share my probs, happiness, sadness
give me a hug when i'm down
comfort me in times
play with me
when i cant get into slp
sleeping in the same room
jokes and little secrets
going out together
sharing the many things
take care of me
this had been in my heart for some time
i'm not a touchy person
but i just love the feel of holding ur hand
but not many times
we get the chance holding hands
but everytime
ur hand in mine
it never fails to give me the sisterly feel
that i always were looking for
so protected
so comfortable
not anyone can give me this feeling
but u did.
Still remember,
the trip,
during the performance
backstage where lots of ppl
we needed to pass through to get to the other side of the stage
u grabbed my hand
and lead me safely to the place that we need to standby
pushing through the lots of people
still hand in hand
i'm touched
seriously.
Maybe u felt nothing but
that little act
it really warms my heart
and means something to me.
i wont tell u in person
cos i dunno how to put this across
and maybe is this
that made me care a little more about u
Monday, May 26, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
3 days, 2 nites at Sentosa.
FUN and Happening!
Played Uno stacko
i always kena the draw 2..
thanks to yq la..
always her turn she take draw 2..
and she saved the stacko from collapsing
which is foul lor
should collapse during her turn le
then in the end i survived
and there goes the stacko during jh's turn
no more to pull out le
the stacko already so shaky and shld collapse before that.
then dinner at Sakae Izakaya,
along Along Siloso Beach.
the nice sea breeze and the nice sunset
played with the water and sand before dinner
take pictures on the beach.
then itchy during dinner..
Nice dinner
nice place.
and Songs of the sea.
in the queue waiting for entrance
so long and crowded
playing tian xia wu di
madness... i win on ground.
The show,
Ah ah ah ah, ah ah ah ah ah...
the nice laser works and the lightning and the fireworks
i really enjoyed the show plus having someone beside me.
u are the girl with the curly hair and i'm the cute puffy fish.. hahas
i dream to be the composer of the fireworks and the water splashes and the music.
i wanna dance on the sea.
Then play Taboo in the room.
That's completely madness and craziness
think the whole chalet gonna collapse with our laughters..
Taboo Taboo rules.
Sh was really crazy
keep having funny actions and keep staring at the hour glass
and press the noisy red pump thingy
to stop the people when time's up.
that was really big fun and laughters
that cant be stopped
laughed till stomach pain
and jh thanks for being so excited till elbowed me on my arm
pain pain..
then go back to own rooms,
the 4 of us
total craziness
take all kinds of funny pics
got sexy, got idiot got many la..
then wishing everyone goodnite in our chinese name
cos the other 3 all chinese name
only me got english name
so must say all chinese diao..
starting from me
jing tong slp, mz slp, ws slp, qj slp
all too high and crazy lor
then could not get into sleep,
turn on tv,
then air con too cold
but then lazy to get up to turn off
then cant slp..
morning first thing,
get up,
turn off air con!
and send ws off to work..
the sky ride and the Luge!
i think i love speeding.
the wind blowing at my face and the thrill of going down the slop at high speed!
i must be a reckless driver if i drive..
but i love the freedom riding and controlling around the curve roads.
i enjoy both the day and the nite one..
nite one more scary and challenging..
Playing Frisbee on the hot sand and the blazing sun,
running all around,
anyhow throw,
then anyhow run for a place
then the 3 of them had to do forfeit
so damn funny
then jh and me picking sticks and start fighting
as if the sticks were swords.
then broken liao become
shuang jie gun
we are crazy la.
like dat also can play lor...
i love the beaches.
Then lunch at delifrance
nice meal..
nice ice lemon tea that can be refilled..
nice dessert...
then some went for the fish flexology
and me, mz, ca went on our own to somewhere near the merlion there where there is this long stretch of colourful moasiac tiles with little fountain and splashing water
we walked till the end of the stretch in the water
the whole stretch
we also got water flexology leh
hahahas...
then walked the suspension bridge at palawan beach
waiting for u all to come
u all took so so so long to come!
we took the tramp like travel so many stops le around Sentosa
and took many pictures using mz cute 'robot' cam
jumping at the beach
splashing water
got ourselves wet
and wrote a big twisties word on the sand and still waiting for u all grand arrival
then we saw u all coming
and hide behind the bushes and trees
but being spotted by our perfect eyesight sh...
cos mz's bright pink shorts..
then together at the beach
taking lots of photos
jumping here and there
staying in the air where the camera snaps..
doing the twisties cheer together in the middle of the beach
simply crazy when all the girls get together...
lots of laughters...
Then swimming in the pool downstairs of chalet room at nite...
playing frisbee on sand in the hot day not enough,
Play in pool somemore at nite
then i become the monkey for many times...
drank pool water lor..
then got 'scolded' by the management uncle there
he said others need to Zzz but duh..
was like only 9 plus if not wrong
chalet where got so early slp
u no chalet b4 ah, uncle...
cos we got too loud with all our happy laughters
and the happily throwing and snatching of frisbee
i'm the monkey
short short monkey in the pool somemore
difficult to snatch the frisbee lor
Then song of the pool that we created after the Songs of the sea show in the swimming pool!
then play tian xia wu di in pool,
then got the bao zhuo
who wins who sits.
and i completely lost.
cant react in water man
retarded...
then wait for turn to bathe
so cold in the room had to wait outside of the room..
hungry also..
then a little surprise bday celebration at cafe del mar for our bday gal, jh
but the cake already put in the fridge where the bday gal's room was
cos no space le.
then i think she saw also la
then need to take the cake out
had to ask sue to lure her away for awhile
thanks sue
then when all ready
All on way to the cafe
while me, qj and mz went to take the cake and presents
walked behind them
joined them later
but then the ultimate was the ben ben waiter come to ask did we leave a bday cake with them?
so loud somemore..
wah laos..
obviously our bday gal heard it la...
then no surprise lor..
anyway i think is the thoughts that counts la..
celebrating with u at the strike of 12 midnite..
i nvr had this kind of celebration b4
i will be touched if this happens..
hope u love the celebration?
then play the frog game
i cant concentrate at all
person who say wrongly
has to eat 1 mouth of the last piece of cake
then i always loose track what i should say during my turn..
so i hav to eat lor..
dunno how many mouths lor
like almost half the piece of cake is in my stomach
lols
Second nite of taboo
not so happening but still lots of laughters and funny things
est: rugby become ruby
red colour diamond,
expensive,
happily describing till finally realised wrong word
then become
a sport
red colour ball
the sound like ruby also etc...
Jh: fort canning become mount faber
can take cable car etc...
also happily describing till realise wrong also
hahas..
i wanna play taboo again!!!
Taboooooooooooo...............
and the fruit game and the cartoon character game
all the games suddenly so nice to play...
went back to own rooms
tired le
but others still continuing playing
but tonite my room mates changed cos some went home
so i shared with sue and jh
then sue scared of dark
and grabbed my arm..
no scared...
mas selemat here...
jh usual sleeping position,
need the wall
slp facing the wall...
good nite gals
hahas..
last day
watched TV in the morning
jh left first
cos her bday
must celebrate with her own frens
or ur special one
check out the 2 other rooms
left 1 room
then left bags at the reception there..
everyone too lazy to move
then finally decided to walk the dragon trail
so hot inside
and our dear fren sue,
so scared of spiders!
then went to eat lunch
then had dessert
so cold the air con
so faster finish the dessert
and went outside
sat there,
everyone like half gone and sleepy
wait for tramp..
we too hot till mind also crazy..
then we speak in china accent
then we got the kao goat's leg, kao rabbit's leg, kao horse leg, kao cow leg, kao dragon leg, kao etc.. others haven mention...
all is our zodiac la
then on way home
long way
mrt crowded
no place to sit
tired, sleepy, mind blank
Home sweet home
then i bought my bubble tea
in chalet no where sell
so first thing out of train and back to island,
my bubble tea waiting for me!
BUT
3 days like not enough
when having fun,
time is always not enough
but the memories and fun we had
will never be replaced?
i want play the games, i wanna go sentosa again, i wanna go to the beaches again
i want the sea view, breeze blowing on my face, the soft sand under my feet
the luge the everything!
all so beautiful.
i had so much laughters the 3 days.
Thanks everyone...
FUN and Happening!
Played Uno stacko
i always kena the draw 2..
thanks to yq la..
always her turn she take draw 2..
and she saved the stacko from collapsing
which is foul lor
should collapse during her turn le
then in the end i survived
and there goes the stacko during jh's turn
no more to pull out le
the stacko already so shaky and shld collapse before that.
then dinner at Sakae Izakaya,
along Along Siloso Beach.
the nice sea breeze and the nice sunset
played with the water and sand before dinner
take pictures on the beach.
then itchy during dinner..
Nice dinner
nice place.
and Songs of the sea.
in the queue waiting for entrance
so long and crowded
playing tian xia wu di
madness... i win on ground.
The show,
Ah ah ah ah, ah ah ah ah ah...
the nice laser works and the lightning and the fireworks
i really enjoyed the show plus having someone beside me.
u are the girl with the curly hair and i'm the cute puffy fish.. hahas
i dream to be the composer of the fireworks and the water splashes and the music.
i wanna dance on the sea.
Then play Taboo in the room.
That's completely madness and craziness
think the whole chalet gonna collapse with our laughters..
Taboo Taboo rules.
Sh was really crazy
keep having funny actions and keep staring at the hour glass
and press the noisy red pump thingy
to stop the people when time's up.
that was really big fun and laughters
that cant be stopped
laughed till stomach pain
and jh thanks for being so excited till elbowed me on my arm
pain pain..
then go back to own rooms,
the 4 of us
total craziness
take all kinds of funny pics
got sexy, got idiot got many la..
then wishing everyone goodnite in our chinese name
cos the other 3 all chinese name
only me got english name
so must say all chinese diao..
starting from me
jing tong slp, mz slp, ws slp, qj slp
all too high and crazy lor
then could not get into sleep,
turn on tv,
then air con too cold
but then lazy to get up to turn off
then cant slp..
morning first thing,
get up,
turn off air con!
and send ws off to work..
the sky ride and the Luge!
i think i love speeding.
the wind blowing at my face and the thrill of going down the slop at high speed!
i must be a reckless driver if i drive..
but i love the freedom riding and controlling around the curve roads.
i enjoy both the day and the nite one..
nite one more scary and challenging..
Playing Frisbee on the hot sand and the blazing sun,
running all around,
anyhow throw,
then anyhow run for a place
then the 3 of them had to do forfeit
so damn funny
then jh and me picking sticks and start fighting
as if the sticks were swords.
then broken liao become
shuang jie gun
we are crazy la.
like dat also can play lor...
i love the beaches.
Then lunch at delifrance
nice meal..
nice ice lemon tea that can be refilled..
nice dessert...
then some went for the fish flexology
and me, mz, ca went on our own to somewhere near the merlion there where there is this long stretch of colourful moasiac tiles with little fountain and splashing water
we walked till the end of the stretch in the water
the whole stretch
we also got water flexology leh
hahahas...
then walked the suspension bridge at palawan beach
waiting for u all to come
u all took so so so long to come!
we took the tramp like travel so many stops le around Sentosa
and took many pictures using mz cute 'robot' cam
jumping at the beach
splashing water
got ourselves wet
and wrote a big twisties word on the sand and still waiting for u all grand arrival
then we saw u all coming
and hide behind the bushes and trees
but being spotted by our perfect eyesight sh...
cos mz's bright pink shorts..
then together at the beach
taking lots of photos
jumping here and there
staying in the air where the camera snaps..
doing the twisties cheer together in the middle of the beach
simply crazy when all the girls get together...
lots of laughters...
Then swimming in the pool downstairs of chalet room at nite...
playing frisbee on sand in the hot day not enough,
Play in pool somemore at nite
then i become the monkey for many times...
drank pool water lor..
then got 'scolded' by the management uncle there
he said others need to Zzz but duh..
was like only 9 plus if not wrong
chalet where got so early slp
u no chalet b4 ah, uncle...
cos we got too loud with all our happy laughters
and the happily throwing and snatching of frisbee
i'm the monkey
short short monkey in the pool somemore
difficult to snatch the frisbee lor
Then song of the pool that we created after the Songs of the sea show in the swimming pool!
then play tian xia wu di in pool,
then got the bao zhuo
who wins who sits.
and i completely lost.
cant react in water man
retarded...
then wait for turn to bathe
so cold in the room had to wait outside of the room..
hungry also..
then a little surprise bday celebration at cafe del mar for our bday gal, jh
but the cake already put in the fridge where the bday gal's room was
cos no space le.
then i think she saw also la
then need to take the cake out
had to ask sue to lure her away for awhile
thanks sue
then when all ready
All on way to the cafe
while me, qj and mz went to take the cake and presents
walked behind them
joined them later
but then the ultimate was the ben ben waiter come to ask did we leave a bday cake with them?
so loud somemore..
wah laos..
obviously our bday gal heard it la...
then no surprise lor..
anyway i think is the thoughts that counts la..
celebrating with u at the strike of 12 midnite..
i nvr had this kind of celebration b4
i will be touched if this happens..
hope u love the celebration?
then play the frog game
i cant concentrate at all
person who say wrongly
has to eat 1 mouth of the last piece of cake
then i always loose track what i should say during my turn..
so i hav to eat lor..
dunno how many mouths lor
like almost half the piece of cake is in my stomach
lols
Second nite of taboo
not so happening but still lots of laughters and funny things
est: rugby become ruby
red colour diamond,
expensive,
happily describing till finally realised wrong word
then become
a sport
red colour ball
the sound like ruby also etc...
Jh: fort canning become mount faber
can take cable car etc...
also happily describing till realise wrong also
hahas..
i wanna play taboo again!!!
Taboooooooooooo...............
and the fruit game and the cartoon character game
all the games suddenly so nice to play...
went back to own rooms
tired le
but others still continuing playing
but tonite my room mates changed cos some went home
so i shared with sue and jh
then sue scared of dark
and grabbed my arm..
no scared...
mas selemat here...
jh usual sleeping position,
need the wall
slp facing the wall...
good nite gals
hahas..
last day
watched TV in the morning
jh left first
cos her bday
must celebrate with her own frens
or ur special one
check out the 2 other rooms
left 1 room
then left bags at the reception there..
everyone too lazy to move
then finally decided to walk the dragon trail
so hot inside
and our dear fren sue,
so scared of spiders!
then went to eat lunch
then had dessert
so cold the air con
so faster finish the dessert
and went outside
sat there,
everyone like half gone and sleepy
wait for tramp..
we too hot till mind also crazy..
then we speak in china accent
then we got the kao goat's leg, kao rabbit's leg, kao horse leg, kao cow leg, kao dragon leg, kao etc.. others haven mention...
all is our zodiac la
then on way home
long way
mrt crowded
no place to sit
tired, sleepy, mind blank
Home sweet home
then i bought my bubble tea
in chalet no where sell
so first thing out of train and back to island,
my bubble tea waiting for me!
BUT
3 days like not enough
when having fun,
time is always not enough
but the memories and fun we had
will never be replaced?
i want play the games, i wanna go sentosa again, i wanna go to the beaches again
i want the sea view, breeze blowing on my face, the soft sand under my feet
the luge the everything!
all so beautiful.
i had so much laughters the 3 days.
Thanks everyone...
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Seriously,
recently I think i'm abit detached from u all.
Even think that even if have me there or not, it does not make a diff.
People come and people go.
Everything will still go on as usual.
The circle of frens still the same.
The same few.
i never had been impt to anyone anywhere.
W/o my existence everything will all be the same.
Dun u think so?
recently I think i'm abit detached from u all.
Even think that even if have me there or not, it does not make a diff.
People come and people go.
Everything will still go on as usual.
The circle of frens still the same.
The same few.
i never had been impt to anyone anywhere.
W/o my existence everything will all be the same.
Dun u think so?
Saturday, May 03, 2008
Dear Noheartgirl,
This post is for U.
Remember after dinner, when we were waiting for lift, i said i think you would be happier if i vanish or gone for good?
i really think you will be..
no more me to argue with u
no more me to disturb u
no more me to bother u
no more mood swing girl giving u the face now and forever
cos i know i'm just someone no place in ur heart.
cos u are the Noheartgirl.
who often dun reply to me at times.
But now i take it easy even if u dun reply
And when i said i'll be your listening ears, i'm serious
But as i said, i may not be the one who you wanna share ur probs with,
but if u need someone, i can always be here. *My promise*
Anyway, no pressure.
As long as you are happy, i'll be happy for you.
And i enjoy time spent with you. It's true.
This post is for U.
Remember after dinner, when we were waiting for lift, i said i think you would be happier if i vanish or gone for good?
i really think you will be..
no more me to argue with u
no more me to disturb u
no more me to bother u
no more mood swing girl giving u the face now and forever
cos i know i'm just someone no place in ur heart.
cos u are the Noheartgirl.
who often dun reply to me at times.
But now i take it easy even if u dun reply
And when i said i'll be your listening ears, i'm serious
But as i said, i may not be the one who you wanna share ur probs with,
but if u need someone, i can always be here. *My promise*
Anyway, no pressure.
As long as you are happy, i'll be happy for you.
And i enjoy time spent with you. It's true.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
i already stopped taking things so hard
especially with handling emotions
not giving any single bit of my heart away anymore
never to give in too much feelings to anyone
BUT
i dunno when it all started
maybe is the little things that we do together
i dunno when u start to have that little place in my heart
just like spore
a little dot on the world's map
Sadly
my heart is way too too small compared to the world's map
so that little place that u stand in my heart
is actually so much so much
i cared
i got angry
y giving urself so much trouble to care
and get angry in the end
U will not be seeing this post and u never will
i jus wanna say it out
u did make me start to care again
but i would like to get over u
cos i know...
i dun have a place in ur heart
especially with handling emotions
not giving any single bit of my heart away anymore
never to give in too much feelings to anyone
BUT
i dunno when it all started
maybe is the little things that we do together
i dunno when u start to have that little place in my heart
just like spore
a little dot on the world's map
Sadly
my heart is way too too small compared to the world's map
so that little place that u stand in my heart
is actually so much so much
i cared
i got angry
y giving urself so much trouble to care
and get angry in the end
U will not be seeing this post and u never will
i jus wanna say it out
u did make me start to care again
but i would like to get over u
cos i know...
i dun have a place in ur heart
Monday, April 14, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Not a habit
Not a daily routine
It was always so nice and warms the heart
when ending each of the day
whoever's sleeping first
text the other with only a simple good nite wish
or concluding a little of the happenings for the day
updating each other every nite
at least there is this person on mind
before going to bed
How nice can this be...
If it still...
Not a daily routine
It was always so nice and warms the heart
when ending each of the day
whoever's sleeping first
text the other with only a simple good nite wish
or concluding a little of the happenings for the day
updating each other every nite
at least there is this person on mind
before going to bed
How nice can this be...
If it still...
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Dancing in Unity 2008- Traditional Elegance, Modern Scene
15 March 2008, 8pm, Victoria Theatre
Not dancing for our own Troupe's performance though but i'm here again
The many troupes together, putting up a performance...
The so familiar place, VT.
Every 2 years i will be coming back and performing on this stage for our own troupe's performance. (I hope it will continue)
The stage, the backstage,the lightings, the many dressing rooms, the spiral staircase that we used to climb up and down when we were rushing for the next item...
The entire place, not abit of change ever since i last left.
This place, contains all our hard work, worries, happiness , teamwork, fun and fulfillments.
Every Dance and its story behind...
Draws a beautiful end on this stage here in VT.
Never failed to give me post Expressions Blues when we mark the end of every own performances.
The last Dance,
The stage lights dimmed, the audiences applauded, the curtain closes.
The photo takings after the end of the performance
The way back to the dressing room
Saying how we did for the Dance
Commenting here and there
where we danced wrong etc
while untying our hair
Removing all the makeup
Removing the costume
Changing back to our normal clothes
Carrying all our props onto the lorry
Goodbye to VT
Heading home, walking on the bridge, Fullerton and Singapore River
The way home was always the same
the night lights, the night scene and the cold wind blowing
In mind, thoughts were all about the performance just before
Well, i'll have to experience everything again on 13th Sep 2008
Leng Kee Expressions IX
I'll say Hi and GoodBye to VT again...
Soon...
15 March 2008, 8pm, Victoria Theatre
Not dancing for our own Troupe's performance though but i'm here again
The many troupes together, putting up a performance...
The so familiar place, VT.
Every 2 years i will be coming back and performing on this stage for our own troupe's performance. (I hope it will continue)
The stage, the backstage,the lightings, the many dressing rooms, the spiral staircase that we used to climb up and down when we were rushing for the next item...
The entire place, not abit of change ever since i last left.
This place, contains all our hard work, worries, happiness , teamwork, fun and fulfillments.
Every Dance and its story behind...
Draws a beautiful end on this stage here in VT.
Never failed to give me post Expressions Blues when we mark the end of every own performances.
The last Dance,
The stage lights dimmed, the audiences applauded, the curtain closes.
The photo takings after the end of the performance
The way back to the dressing room
Saying how we did for the Dance
Commenting here and there
where we danced wrong etc
while untying our hair
Removing all the makeup
Removing the costume
Changing back to our normal clothes
Carrying all our props onto the lorry
Goodbye to VT
Heading home, walking on the bridge, Fullerton and Singapore River
The way home was always the same
the night lights, the night scene and the cold wind blowing
In mind, thoughts were all about the performance just before
Well, i'll have to experience everything again on 13th Sep 2008
Leng Kee Expressions IX
I'll say Hi and GoodBye to VT again...
Soon...
Saturday, March 15, 2008
3 years...
The last semester of the studies...
The darkest period...
And i hate it the most...
It was such a struggle and such down times of my poly life...
nightmares with all the assignments and the packed submission dates...
the many days without slp....
the many worries that i had with all the stupid projects...
the people who i felt so hard to handle and what more to work with...
It made me learn many things...
It trained alot on my tolerance level...
But dun ever think that i keep quiet & dun fight back, you think that i'm always the loser & keep giving me that kind of face & attitude...
i had enough of it, really...
i just did not want to create more trouble by having war...
U are U and I am I...
And our world can never meet...
So let it be...
And finally i make it to the end...
I am so so happy that it all came to an end...
A real end and a full stop to this course...
Good Bye TP...
The last semester of the studies...
The darkest period...
And i hate it the most...
It was such a struggle and such down times of my poly life...
nightmares with all the assignments and the packed submission dates...
the many days without slp....
the many worries that i had with all the stupid projects...
the people who i felt so hard to handle and what more to work with...
It made me learn many things...
It trained alot on my tolerance level...
But dun ever think that i keep quiet & dun fight back, you think that i'm always the loser & keep giving me that kind of face & attitude...
i had enough of it, really...
i just did not want to create more trouble by having war...
U are U and I am I...
And our world can never meet...
So let it be...
And finally i make it to the end...
I am so so happy that it all came to an end...
A real end and a full stop to this course...
Good Bye TP...
Friday, February 29, 2008
I'll always remember....
The morning breakfast, any bread w/o butter or cheese as i never like them.
The freshly brewed coffee with 2 packs of sugar and the beautiful cup that i drink in.
The sweet potato soup that u cooked when i just commented i din drink for a long time.
I think i cant take it anymore. I just wanna say...
U are always too good to me...
Too good to enter my life...
My heart cant contain anymore
And i'm really touched by u...
Never had i felt this special...
U are the first to make me realise...
Thank You and loves...
U will be treasured...
The morning breakfast, any bread w/o butter or cheese as i never like them.
The freshly brewed coffee with 2 packs of sugar and the beautiful cup that i drink in.
The sweet potato soup that u cooked when i just commented i din drink for a long time.
Then, The 9 pink roses when i have to go
Followed by, The farewell cake
More Surprises upcoming....
Then pop out a Card and the identical Ring u wore
Then, yesterday... i met up with her again...
Followed by, The farewell cake
More Surprises upcoming....Then pop out a Card and the identical Ring u wore
Then, yesterday... i met up with her again...
Now, Estee Lauder Travel Exclusive Fragrance Collection
I think i cant take it anymore. I just wanna say...U are always too good to me...
Too good to enter my life...
My heart cant contain anymore
And i'm really touched by u...
Never had i felt this special...
U are the first to make me realise...
Thank You and loves...
U will be treasured...
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Searching for that piece of heaven
That piece which belongs to me
Completing the missing part of my life
Just for me
Life's like a jigsaw puzzle
What may become of me
No one knows
No answer nor reply
Until I found that missing piece
That piece that can fit in my life's jigsaw puzzle
I'll be welcoming you to complete my puzzle
My complete life's puzzle
A puzzle that seems to be uncompleted
Blurry at some point of times
On the verge of falling
Shine the path that i should take
Shine it
And lead me
To where i should be heading to
Just making my way
Making my way
Searching for that piece of heaven
That piece which belongs to me
Completing the missing part of my life
Just for me
Life's like a jigsaw puzzle
What may become of me
No one knows
No answer nor reply
Until I found that missing piece
That piece that can fit in my life's jigsaw puzzle
I'll be welcoming you to complete my puzzle
My complete life's puzzle
A puzzle that seems to be uncompleted
Blurry at some point of times
On the verge of falling
Shine the path that i should take
Shine it
And lead me
To where i should be heading to
Monday, February 18, 2008
Some things just so happens. I was viewing a profile of my fren and i saw u and her in the pic. U in your wedding gown. You are still the ever beautiful one. Suddenly, i felt a sudden heartache. Thank you for not inviting me to ur wedding. Maybe u have long 4gotten me or maybe i has never been able to enter ur world. Anyway, u are part of the reason y i like sch then. Sec 1 and sec 4 was the most memorable. If i could turn back the time, i think i will treasure 101%. Maybe that 1% will make u invite me to ur wedding or maybe jus an sms saying that u are getting married? Haha. Anyway, saw u so blissful, i'm so happy for u. U have all my best blessings.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete
Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release
Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out, for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....
LISTEN...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my OWN...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete
Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release
Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out, for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....
LISTEN...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my OWN...
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Well, it has been a very long time since i last blogged. And i'm back again! Some things to update....
23rd April- 13th Aug
Attachment was great! Never did i ever think going for attachment, working together with people u just know can be just so wonderful. I missed the people, the environment. It's just like a daily routine so much so comfortable. Guessed i've adpat to the sch. So much fun and laughters... So much so involved in the events, made me feel like a family even i just came in to work. I really felt the warmth and care u all have shown for me. And of course nice people that i would never 4get and make me still wanna go back when i'm free even if it is so far.. Last day, They had a little surprise farewell party for me. And i received pink roses, cards with their touching words inside, and other gifts inside, a secret gift that i really treasure. And a nice dinner at swensens with one of the teachers teaching there that i'm quite close with. Thank u so much. And from this attachment, i'm a little aspired to become a teacher or someone part in the sch.
13th Aug- 15th Aug
Rushing the SIP report.. Dunno how to start.. And i'm time pressed to complete the report b4 i can fly. The submission is actually on 20th but i'll be away so... On 13th, i read the guidelines and sian half way. Nothing comes to mind, so i slack, did nothing. haha I hate writing reports. On 14th started writing some nonsense and rubbish. Also like no much progress. On 15th last day for me to finish. Kept staring on the com screen. Typing little by little. And in the end did till next day morning 3 am. And there goes my slp. Only slept abt 2 - 3 hrs.
16th Aug- 21st Aug
Was away for Kuching International Dance Festival. Early in the morning 6am get out of house and headed to airport. Together with my other 6 dance mates and my laoshi. We flew there to perform together with dancers from all over the world. Then next day came, PA dancers and their 2 laoshi, Dance Inspiration dancers and their laoshi. We as one Spore. Was really a great experience. Before the trip we had to learn many other dance combinations, as many as 10 combi. We were all shocked and stressed as how to learn so many and remember the combi in such a short period of time. The adults were working, infact all those gg for this trip were working and were all tired and had to foresake our Sundays practising. But in the end we made it, not a very good performance though but everything went well for that section. So much laughters, fun, pain, aching that we shared... During this trip, many incidents that really made me learnt alot. Teamwork, Team spirits and be able to communicate with each other are very impt. The things we share and the situation that we were in, really bring us together. Really... brought us even closer. Together as one, i really do believe.
28th Aug
Went back to the sch for teachers' day celebration... So funny that i din go back to my own pri/sec sch. Went to my attachment sch instead. The concert, everybody was so excited abt the concert. And a big cake for the teachers by the sch. The children performed their items for their teachers. Also, they had their little party in class for their teachers. The children got their gifts ready and all rushed to their teachers and gave them their presents. The whole staff room filled with presents on their tables. And i got a chance to see how the teachers unpacked the gifts and their expression while opening. My first time. Been wondering how the teachers react when opening the gifts by students back when i was still a pri sch student. Now i have seen it with my own eyes. haha... Current Students and ex students of the sch came to flood the entrance of the staff room. Many teachers and their students at every corner of the sch. Was really a mess. So many ppl. Headache. Long time ever since i last experience this kind of situation.
28th Sep
And it's celebration for children's day. Haha. Went back to the sch again. Today, teachers got to perform instead. So amazing to see the teachers dance infront of their students and the items put up by them. Haha i always liked children's day celebration. But too bad children's day dun exist for us anymore. But then i still receive children's day gifts by the teachers... Haha so happy!
6th oct
haha.. Actually not arranged to meet with one of the teacher i've known at my attachment. Shld be today instead but on 5th oct nite and i was awoken by her call, she suddenly ask to go out on 6th instead as she scared she might have something on today. Haha our date is at 2pm, city hall mrt. But in the end we were both late but then she was only like 3 mins earlier than me. Our timing were good and the day was so hot and sunny, perfect for shooting. We went shopping and she bought lots of stuffs, clothes and heels. Everthing fits her nicely and so she bought them all that we have selected. Then it's our main purpose- shooting. We went shooting till crazy. Ask her to pose and pose, then she also wants me to pose. We were all crazy. The people there think we were crazy. Posing one and there. Spent hours walking from one place to another and posing and posing. And she is actually the first person so crazy with me in photography. We shoot till no more MRT service and so took a cab home. Then so excited transfer the photos to com and review the takes. Not all takes are good but some still satisfactory.
Here's one of the shots that i think is nice by her(still have many others):
23rd April- 13th Aug
Attachment was great! Never did i ever think going for attachment, working together with people u just know can be just so wonderful. I missed the people, the environment. It's just like a daily routine so much so comfortable. Guessed i've adpat to the sch. So much fun and laughters... So much so involved in the events, made me feel like a family even i just came in to work. I really felt the warmth and care u all have shown for me. And of course nice people that i would never 4get and make me still wanna go back when i'm free even if it is so far.. Last day, They had a little surprise farewell party for me. And i received pink roses, cards with their touching words inside, and other gifts inside, a secret gift that i really treasure. And a nice dinner at swensens with one of the teachers teaching there that i'm quite close with. Thank u so much. And from this attachment, i'm a little aspired to become a teacher or someone part in the sch.
13th Aug- 15th Aug
Rushing the SIP report.. Dunno how to start.. And i'm time pressed to complete the report b4 i can fly. The submission is actually on 20th but i'll be away so... On 13th, i read the guidelines and sian half way. Nothing comes to mind, so i slack, did nothing. haha I hate writing reports. On 14th started writing some nonsense and rubbish. Also like no much progress. On 15th last day for me to finish. Kept staring on the com screen. Typing little by little. And in the end did till next day morning 3 am. And there goes my slp. Only slept abt 2 - 3 hrs.
16th Aug- 21st Aug
Was away for Kuching International Dance Festival. Early in the morning 6am get out of house and headed to airport. Together with my other 6 dance mates and my laoshi. We flew there to perform together with dancers from all over the world. Then next day came, PA dancers and their 2 laoshi, Dance Inspiration dancers and their laoshi. We as one Spore. Was really a great experience. Before the trip we had to learn many other dance combinations, as many as 10 combi. We were all shocked and stressed as how to learn so many and remember the combi in such a short period of time. The adults were working, infact all those gg for this trip were working and were all tired and had to foresake our Sundays practising. But in the end we made it, not a very good performance though but everything went well for that section. So much laughters, fun, pain, aching that we shared... During this trip, many incidents that really made me learnt alot. Teamwork, Team spirits and be able to communicate with each other are very impt. The things we share and the situation that we were in, really bring us together. Really... brought us even closer. Together as one, i really do believe.
28th Aug
Went back to the sch for teachers' day celebration... So funny that i din go back to my own pri/sec sch. Went to my attachment sch instead. The concert, everybody was so excited abt the concert. And a big cake for the teachers by the sch. The children performed their items for their teachers. Also, they had their little party in class for their teachers. The children got their gifts ready and all rushed to their teachers and gave them their presents. The whole staff room filled with presents on their tables. And i got a chance to see how the teachers unpacked the gifts and their expression while opening. My first time. Been wondering how the teachers react when opening the gifts by students back when i was still a pri sch student. Now i have seen it with my own eyes. haha... Current Students and ex students of the sch came to flood the entrance of the staff room. Many teachers and their students at every corner of the sch. Was really a mess. So many ppl. Headache. Long time ever since i last experience this kind of situation.
28th Sep
And it's celebration for children's day. Haha. Went back to the sch again. Today, teachers got to perform instead. So amazing to see the teachers dance infront of their students and the items put up by them. Haha i always liked children's day celebration. But too bad children's day dun exist for us anymore. But then i still receive children's day gifts by the teachers... Haha so happy!
6th oct
haha.. Actually not arranged to meet with one of the teacher i've known at my attachment. Shld be today instead but on 5th oct nite and i was awoken by her call, she suddenly ask to go out on 6th instead as she scared she might have something on today. Haha our date is at 2pm, city hall mrt. But in the end we were both late but then she was only like 3 mins earlier than me. Our timing were good and the day was so hot and sunny, perfect for shooting. We went shopping and she bought lots of stuffs, clothes and heels. Everthing fits her nicely and so she bought them all that we have selected. Then it's our main purpose- shooting. We went shooting till crazy. Ask her to pose and pose, then she also wants me to pose. We were all crazy. The people there think we were crazy. Posing one and there. Spent hours walking from one place to another and posing and posing. And she is actually the first person so crazy with me in photography. We shoot till no more MRT service and so took a cab home. Then so excited transfer the photos to com and review the takes. Not all takes are good but some still satisfactory.
Here's one of the shots that i think is nice by her(still have many others):
here's taken by me:
Friday, April 20, 2007
I was browsing through the many photos... Then i came across the Dance chalet pics...
Suddenly i really missed the Dance chalet... which was some long time ago.. And i simply LOVE every single one of the pictures below...
Suddenly i really missed the Dance chalet... which was some long time ago.. And i simply LOVE every single one of the pictures below...
The 3 really bored people in the room posing to the cam infront of the mirror somemore while we were still waiting for our turn to take bath..
Every single pose was so so special and so ever real... Think can never take the same pic with the same pose and the same atmosphere again... And the people taking the photo cannot be replaced, not even 1... Then it will turn out to be totally different... hahas....
hasn't been feeling very good for the past 2 days... Was totally stressed over some freaking sickening thing... it was like a dream...
When u have been left all alone and compromise cannot be done.. It was really hard for everyone, i knoe... how will u feel when u are in the situation? i was totally disheartened... My heart sank... i wished i can vanish into thin air and not worrying abt it anymore... i was just like a garbage where no one wants...
When u have been left all alone and compromise cannot be done.. It was really hard for everyone, i knoe... how will u feel when u are in the situation? i was totally disheartened... My heart sank... i wished i can vanish into thin air and not worrying abt it anymore... i was just like a garbage where no one wants...
Monday, April 16, 2007
i lead a boring life...
sometimes just living in my own world
sometimes doing the same routine
likes to draw when i feel like it
sometimes do things unexpectedly
my mood swings every now and then
sometimes i feel like vanishing into thin air
can be hyper active
can be quiet all the while
i hate the word busy
i dun like ppl not replying to me
i like listening to songs that can touch me
i dun like adding colours in my drawing
i can be too emotional
but can be cold too
i want an elder sis
i believe that lady luck always not on my side
Think i need some colours to add on my life...
cos it's grey now...
But dats not the end.
Think i need someone really to understand me and not just see my weaknesses
no one is perfect?
can i find that someone?
can i stop the time so that happy moments will never end?
sometimes just living in my own world
sometimes doing the same routine
likes to draw when i feel like it
sometimes do things unexpectedly
my mood swings every now and then
sometimes i feel like vanishing into thin air
can be hyper active
can be quiet all the while
i hate the word busy
i dun like ppl not replying to me
i like listening to songs that can touch me
i dun like adding colours in my drawing
i can be too emotional
but can be cold too
i want an elder sis
i believe that lady luck always not on my side
Think i need some colours to add on my life...
cos it's grey now...
But dats not the end.
Think i need someone really to understand me and not just see my weaknesses
no one is perfect?
can i find that someone?
can i stop the time so that happy moments will never end?
well i skipped dance again tonite! and again not telling the dance coordinator.. Haha... Bad bad but then i'm just lazy!
And today the stupid workers keep on drilling.... Dunno drill What... The whole afternoon... hear the drilling sound... Headache... Just cant u all Stop it....
again it's a boring day!
but soon i'll be having SIP....
So well, let me rot just another wk... cos when SIP starts, think also no time to rot...
And today the stupid workers keep on drilling.... Dunno drill What... The whole afternoon... hear the drilling sound... Headache... Just cant u all Stop it....
again it's a boring day!
but soon i'll be having SIP....
So well, let me rot just another wk... cos when SIP starts, think also no time to rot...
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Friendship can be in many kinds:
- someone is always giving and the other person not taking
- someone always giving and the other person taking but did not show
- someone is always giving more and the other person less
- someone giving and the other person also give some in return
for 1. - dat someone will give as much as possible at first but will eventually get tired and let go.
for 2. - dat someone will not knoe if the other person care abt this frenship anot. May stay on but may also let go.
for 3. - This friendship will last if dat someone really treasure the friend and does not mind giving more.
for 4. - This friendship may be a true one if the giving and taking last...
In different friendships, U may be dat someone or u may be the other person.
Only U know which category u belong to.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
haha.. went bugis with some of my sec sch frens... Long time did not meet up, so met for dinner cum gathering.. haha
After dinner, Went to take neoprint...
8 ppl squeezing inside that small machine... It was hot hot hot.. Damn hot... need to take dunno how many shots and choose 6 out of them... we took a long time to position ourselves...
So we kept squeezing to make sure that all the faces can be inside and decrease the chance of blocking each other...
But still....
some faces got blocked... Cant help it... too many people... haha
After dinner, Went to take neoprint...
8 ppl squeezing inside that small machine... It was hot hot hot.. Damn hot... need to take dunno how many shots and choose 6 out of them... we took a long time to position ourselves...
So we kept squeezing to make sure that all the faces can be inside and decrease the chance of blocking each other...
But still....
some faces got blocked... Cant help it... too many people... haha
Monday, April 09, 2007
Maybe last time if u asked me not to go dance, i'll protest...
I do not care about what others said, even they said they're not gg, i'll still go.
The passion for dance was too strong then.
The thought of gg dance was so exciting, so eager...
I used to think that dance is my everything.
A piece of my heaven.
But now...
the passion faded... slowly bit by bit.. i do not know when it will be faded totally...
Dont ask me y... cos i dont hav an answer myself.
but i still know that i still have lots and lots of memories...
Wonderful memories that cannot be replaced..
With the long hours of practising, but just the few minutes of performance on stage. This isn't the impt thing.
I do not care about what others said, even they said they're not gg, i'll still go.
The passion for dance was too strong then.
The thought of gg dance was so exciting, so eager...
I used to think that dance is my everything.
A piece of my heaven.
But now...
the passion faded... slowly bit by bit.. i do not know when it will be faded totally...
Dont ask me y... cos i dont hav an answer myself.
but i still know that i still have lots and lots of memories...
Wonderful memories that cannot be replaced..
With the long hours of practising, but just the few minutes of performance on stage. This isn't the impt thing.
The most important thing is the team spirit of all the dancers in the troupe is strong and the good and bad of times that we had together.. We practised hard, spent so much time together and finally received the applauses together.
Every dancer's wish is to hear the loud applauses from the audiences when we finished the dance.
The loud applauses is the greatest gift for the dancers. Need no compliments, need no hurraying, just an applause, means everything to a dancer on stage!
On the stage,under the spotlights, with the glamorous costumes, with sweat and the smiles, receiving the applauses...
At the audiences seats, full house and giving the loud applauses.
Growing together with my LKDT mates and the troupe.
I hope that the bond between us shld never break even if i shld leave one day
The many other performances else where and the big stage of Victoria Theatre...
I think this is the best part of my life i have ever had.
Every dancer's wish is to hear the loud applauses from the audiences when we finished the dance.
The loud applauses is the greatest gift for the dancers. Need no compliments, need no hurraying, just an applause, means everything to a dancer on stage!
On the stage,under the spotlights, with the glamorous costumes, with sweat and the smiles, receiving the applauses...
At the audiences seats, full house and giving the loud applauses.
Growing together with my LKDT mates and the troupe.
I hope that the bond between us shld never break even if i shld leave one day
The many other performances else where and the big stage of Victoria Theatre...
I think this is the best part of my life i have ever had.
well... it's a mon today. And shld hav dance at nite.
Me and my frens have been deciding whether to go for dance ltr since yesterday.
Till now then decided: Not to go. Cos we all so lazy. Plus the both of us used a coin to toss and it granted us 'the permission' not to go.. haha we were too bored and LAME....
But to our surprise....
The decision was made by tossing a coin. Head= go Tail= dun go.
We tossed 3 times and guess what? My fren and i had the same exact results:
1) tail
2) head
3) tail
haha so you mo qi...
But we tried again to be extra confirm...
so we tossed 3 times again:
1) head
2) tail
3) tail
Guess what? same results again...
can u believe dat?
It's fated that we shld not go dance today... haha
Me and my frens have been deciding whether to go for dance ltr since yesterday.
Till now then decided: Not to go. Cos we all so lazy. Plus the both of us used a coin to toss and it granted us 'the permission' not to go.. haha we were too bored and LAME....
But to our surprise....
The decision was made by tossing a coin. Head= go Tail= dun go.
We tossed 3 times and guess what? My fren and i had the same exact results:
1) tail
2) head
3) tail
haha so you mo qi...
But we tried again to be extra confirm...
so we tossed 3 times again:
1) head
2) tail
3) tail
Guess what? same results again...
can u believe dat?
It's fated that we shld not go dance today... haha
Friday, April 06, 2007
What if...
You are someone else?
What if...
You changed gender?
What if...
You are some really super superstar?
What if...
You are born in a family where your dad's the president or some super rich?
What if...
You are born with some handicap?
What if...
You have super natural powers?
What if...
You cared so much for a person but the person dun even want to care abt u?
What if...
You regretted for something that u did/ no chance to do?
What if...
You only left a day to live?
But there's no what if...
There is only a Yes or No. True or False. Real or Unreal. Dream or Reality.
You are someone else?
What if...
You changed gender?
What if...
You are some really super superstar?
What if...
You are born in a family where your dad's the president or some super rich?
What if...
You are born with some handicap?
What if...
You have super natural powers?
What if...
You cared so much for a person but the person dun even want to care abt u?
What if...
You regretted for something that u did/ no chance to do?
What if...
You only left a day to live?
But there's no what if...
There is only a Yes or No. True or False. Real or Unreal. Dream or Reality.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Well, today is my sec sch speech day...
Why would i go back on a boring speech day which has nothing to do with me?
But since i din go back for almost a yr or so, went back when i was in yr 1... But yr 2 was way too busy... So i decided to go back with 2 of my frens cos my club performing too, long time no see them perform and also to visit some teachers... so might as well...
Their dance wasn't really as strong as my batch's.. Think maybe changed instructor then style also change. Was actually abit disappointed but nvm anyway...
Had a good chat with my fav teacher. She is as usual the pretty one... Never had such a long chat with her before and what's more one to one...
As a student in the sch back then and an ex student of the sch now really makes a difference... Things and people change... Ha everything do change so just face it.
But i really do miss sec sch life other than all the studies and the exams. I missed the ever familiar sch, my frens and some really nice teachers...
The memories were all so beautiful... filled with laughters and tears....
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Went for interview today, wore formal.... A hot day....
lucky got a fren staying in the hostel in NUS.. If not i think i dunno how to get to the place of the company...
This is the route of how to get there:
Simei Mrt Station -> Clementi Mrt Station -> Bus 189 -> Internal Shuttle bus -> drop at a stop and walk in -> company.
'Nice long journey' which took an hour plus...
And the interview was also abt an hour... Abit too long? haha...
One funny part in the interview was:
Female interviewer asks some quetions followed by....
Female interviewer: Erm... Is one of ur parents a malay? or?
me: erm... no. I'm a pure chinese.
Female interviewer: Oh ok sorry sorry... Cos u look like malay. so i thought... ~laughs~
Male interviewer: ~laughs~
me: ~laughs~ It's ok... This is not the first time.. Alot of ppl thought i'm a malay too...
Then all: ~laughs~
___________________________________________________________
reached home....
only one word to describe - TIRED!
lucky got a fren staying in the hostel in NUS.. If not i think i dunno how to get to the place of the company...
This is the route of how to get there:
Simei Mrt Station -> Clementi Mrt Station -> Bus 189 -> Internal Shuttle bus -> drop at a stop and walk in -> company.
'Nice long journey' which took an hour plus...
And the interview was also abt an hour... Abit too long? haha...
One funny part in the interview was:
Female interviewer asks some quetions followed by....
Female interviewer: Erm... Is one of ur parents a malay? or?
me: erm... no. I'm a pure chinese.
Female interviewer: Oh ok sorry sorry... Cos u look like malay. so i thought... ~laughs~
Male interviewer: ~laughs~
me: ~laughs~ It's ok... This is not the first time.. Alot of ppl thought i'm a malay too...
Then all: ~laughs~
___________________________________________________________
reached home....
only one word to describe - TIRED!
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Friday, March 23, 2007
Ever since i got the call that i hav to go for the SIP interview, i wasn't feeling relax and happy anymore. Before that i din hav anything to worry abt.... Just enjoy the holis since the results were already out and can wait till Apirl 17th to know where i hav been posted for the SIP.
But now, haiz.......
Issit dat i very lousy? then must faster go for interview first then if the company dun wan then can get another. If not i got no company... hahahaha
But now, haiz.......
Issit dat i very lousy? then must faster go for interview first then if the company dun wan then can get another. If not i got no company... hahahaha
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Well, i got a missed call on my hp.
I was wondering who was calling cos i hav no idea who's the person calling usin the no.
3 mins ltr, the hp rang, now a different no.
i picked up the call, and so scary.....
The sip coordinator called and said i hav to go for interview at a certain company on tues.
Then i went to check, oh my @#$#%$%^! It is damn far. The company is in NUS itself.
Simei -> Clementi leh...
But i cant possibly reject the interview because it is far rite?
Well, it's just an interview, i may not be able to get it anyway.
I was wondering who was calling cos i hav no idea who's the person calling usin the no.
3 mins ltr, the hp rang, now a different no.
i picked up the call, and so scary.....
The sip coordinator called and said i hav to go for interview at a certain company on tues.
Then i went to check, oh my @#$#%$%^! It is damn far. The company is in NUS itself.
Simei -> Clementi leh...
But i cant possibly reject the interview because it is far rite?
Well, it's just an interview, i may not be able to get it anyway.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
haha... I took out my photo album and started Looking through.. It had been a very very long time ever since i take it out the last time. Today i look at it, i was laughing at myself... I cant believe that was me with all the different poses... You know when u are a child, u tend to be always happily posing for the camera and do funny poses and u do not even care if it's ugly or not... Been a child is always great i think... But everyone has to grow up eventually. What's left is only the childhood pictures and the memories... And sometimes u'll give a smile when u are thinking abt it...
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Haha, me and my other 4 dance frens wanted to get our 5 ppl neoprint taken some donkey years ago. But all of us were like soooo busy and stuffs. We had to wait for sooo long and guess what? Today, we will get it taken by all means!
And we also decided to celebrate mz's bday cos her bday is on the 19th. haha. So in the end this 5 ppl neoprint became 7 ppl. And we also went to Party World for karaoke...
And its a yr after expressions. This exact same day. Time really flies..
I still remember that day, Victoria Theatre, 8pm...
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Walking through life unnoticed,
When everything seems to be unimportant anymore,
When more and more disappointments happens,
When hopes are no longer worthwhile to dream and wait for,
When care is no longer given out to anyone anymore,
When the heart dies a little more every single second
and Soon the heart closes all its door,
It's time to end.
When everything seems to be unimportant anymore,
When more and more disappointments happens,
When hopes are no longer worthwhile to dream and wait for,
When care is no longer given out to anyone anymore,
When the heart dies a little more every single second
and Soon the heart closes all its door,
It's time to end.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
ha somehow after the so many years of dancing, the passion in me somehow vanish bit by bit. Last time i used to think that dance is always a part of me. But now, i just go for the sake that i must go.
Well, i really hate to let the passion go. Cos i had so much memories with dance and my frens in the troupe. 9 years there. Growing up together with the troupe and my frens. It's not so easy to let go.
But the idea of quitting always pops up in my mind for the past years. It's very tiring to always stuck in the decision. Then i have to think and think shld i leave? or shld i not. I really dunno. Sometimes i'm really happy when in dance. But sometimes the mood is just not right.
well, let nature takes its course ba. Maybe one day i'll offically say that i'm out of dance. And once the decision is made, Dun ever regret. Cos dat is more hurtful...
Well, i really hate to let the passion go. Cos i had so much memories with dance and my frens in the troupe. 9 years there. Growing up together with the troupe and my frens. It's not so easy to let go.
But the idea of quitting always pops up in my mind for the past years. It's very tiring to always stuck in the decision. Then i have to think and think shld i leave? or shld i not. I really dunno. Sometimes i'm really happy when in dance. But sometimes the mood is just not right.
well, let nature takes its course ba. Maybe one day i'll offically say that i'm out of dance. And once the decision is made, Dun ever regret. Cos dat is more hurtful...
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Well, i guess fate brings people together but faith causes people to be apart.
So what if u meet so many people... People are everywhere... How can u define FATE?
Have u ever wonder why today u will go to that place, get to broad this particular train/bus, at that very point of time and see the different people in the train/bus?
Everytime the different venues, the time will let u meet the different people.
I can be sure that all the time, the people u get to meet are all different faces.
Have u really meet a particular person many times before, at anywhere and any point of time?
I think is very hard? But if fate is there, anything can happen? Ha
But how many of those u met and really get to know them and they maybe even become ur best fren? A fren who u may really share all ur problems, talk to them and when u're helpless, they are there for u? Most importantly, they are true to u.
Well, some people are just really lucky to hav found their true frens and loved ones.
And it all starts from...?
STRANGERS
and sometimes i just wish we aren't friends, just stranger.
So what if u meet so many people... People are everywhere... How can u define FATE?
Have u ever wonder why today u will go to that place, get to broad this particular train/bus, at that very point of time and see the different people in the train/bus?
Everytime the different venues, the time will let u meet the different people.
I can be sure that all the time, the people u get to meet are all different faces.
Have u really meet a particular person many times before, at anywhere and any point of time?
I think is very hard? But if fate is there, anything can happen? Ha
But how many of those u met and really get to know them and they maybe even become ur best fren? A fren who u may really share all ur problems, talk to them and when u're helpless, they are there for u? Most importantly, they are true to u.
Well, some people are just really lucky to hav found their true frens and loved ones.
And it all starts from...?
STRANGERS
and sometimes i just wish we aren't friends, just stranger.
Friday, March 02, 2007
Monday, February 19, 2007
well, new yr dont seems like new yr to me this yr. This yr is so boring!
It is jus some normal days but now it is called new yr cos u get to wear new clothes and got to get red packets and eat new year goodies and see all the long time no see relatives and they are those who are much elder than me. Those only one yr see once that kind. Then you hav to start addressing them one by one once u enter the house, which is so sickneing and i usually dun remember how to address them!
So... anyway after cny, there is good news!
IT'S EXAMS!
what a 'good' news right?
And becuase of exams, i get to not perform for 2 events. Haha, abit happy but also unhappy cos i cant join in the fun with them after new yr.
Well, just hope that exams finish fast and i can pass all my subjects.. i seriously need a runaway...
It is jus some normal days but now it is called new yr cos u get to wear new clothes and got to get red packets and eat new year goodies and see all the long time no see relatives and they are those who are much elder than me. Those only one yr see once that kind. Then you hav to start addressing them one by one once u enter the house, which is so sickneing and i usually dun remember how to address them!
So... anyway after cny, there is good news!
IT'S EXAMS!
what a 'good' news right?
And becuase of exams, i get to not perform for 2 events. Haha, abit happy but also unhappy cos i cant join in the fun with them after new yr.
Well, just hope that exams finish fast and i can pass all my subjects.. i seriously need a runaway...
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Seriously, these few days i've not been in good mood.
Dun ask me y.
Cos i myself also got no answer!
This is sickening!
I dun feel right and always easily frustrated even for the smallest thing ever!
and also easily angry but i dunno angry for what too!
Dun wish to speak much these days.
What have i got into myself?
Hope everything will be better.
I'm tired, really tired with this thing call 'MOOD SWING' perhaps?
Making me nuts
Cant take it no more!
Dun ask me y.
Cos i myself also got no answer!
This is sickening!
I dun feel right and always easily frustrated even for the smallest thing ever!
and also easily angry but i dunno angry for what too!
Dun wish to speak much these days.
What have i got into myself?
Hope everything will be better.
I'm tired, really tired with this thing call 'MOOD SWING' perhaps?
Making me nuts
Cant take it no more!
Friday, February 02, 2007
A silent night
walking home on the dark street alone
tired and weary after a day's of sch and dance
millions of things running through my mind
happiness, sadness, disappointments and all the doubts uncleared.
wind so cold
eyes so dry
heart so empty
soul's gone
passion's gone
all gone
long gone.
come back
please come back
i'm not the real one here
where are u?
give me back my old self
once again
where i can let things go so easily
forget all the things
and move on as if nothing
Colour my world
when everything seems all so grey.
i'm not fine
not at all
i promise
walking home on the dark street alone
tired and weary after a day's of sch and dance
millions of things running through my mind
happiness, sadness, disappointments and all the doubts uncleared.
wind so cold
eyes so dry
heart so empty
soul's gone
passion's gone
all gone
long gone.
come back
please come back
i'm not the real one here
where are u?
give me back my old self
once again
where i can let things go so easily
forget all the things
and move on as if nothing
Colour my world
when everything seems all so grey.
i'm not fine
not at all
i promise
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