It's 15th again
Happy 6th months, sis

Today was my official last day
i wasn't happy or sad
all i felt was normal for the day

now i just know there is this sudden sadness in my heart.
though not long enough to say really close to you people
i always thought these months i haven started to grow to really like you people
the feeling not that strong and close

But what now?

at this moment
a drop of tear just dropped down
followed by a few more

i was actually starting to like you people
after all, not that bad

anyway, what's done cannot be undone
and please dont look back

you seemed to be strong
i hope u are really fine
the feeling of losing a loved one
and it happened so sudden

i felt the pain
when i saw u cried
even though we are not that close

Stay strong

Still not feeling well.
Have been sick, recovering and sick again.
that nose of mine
a week le
still running and blocking
u WIN!
i LOSE!

feverish too.
what happen?
tell me why.

Happy five months, sis.
Words dun have to speak aloud.
Just use the <3 heart to feel.

心情不好

it's nice to talk to someone
someone whom u din contact for a while

it's funny how people and people get together
and then apart
just like that

sometimes there's really no reason
why will get together
and then just suddenly apart
maybe it's just the right time and the right feel

sometimes apart till like some stranger
like don't know each other before

ask me if i experienced?
i said yes
and happened many times
i believed many others do

no matter what,
all i have to say...

* It's amazing when strangers become friends, but it's sad when friends become strangers*

and if it happens
just have to face it.

can i have some peace?

Well, today was shitty at work
that colleague of mine
either take leaves or MCs
can really MCs so many days?
last wk took 2 days MCs
yesterday took urgent leave
today took MC again
what she want?
i'm really pissed
got so much work to clear for my own
and still have to cover hers
piling up and more to come
i'm gg super crazy
my mood gets extra hot.
at a point of time i think i cant breathe
my breath just stopped.
my mind just blanked
my eyes and ears just shut

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the usual same route back home
the 5 min walk from the mrt to home
today i actually took 20 min
many things running through my mind
i cant think.

i seriously dunno what i wanted
i seriously not feeling very happy
i seriously dun even know what i'm feeling inside myself
i cant see the future
i cant imagine
my visions are blurred
i have no directions anymore

but still i have to pretend to be strong
i'm tired
i dunno myself anymore

can someone just take a knife and stab me right through.
so i will just say goodbye to the world

i'm very vexed
infact i'm scared
i dunno how

the timing always wrong
Why do things alway happen at the wrong time
just when i started to accept things
and here came something else to disrupt

think i just have to do it
and get over

Happy Four Months, sis.

sometimes ppl are just so fake
so plastic
& backstabbers
infront of you, angels
behind you, devils
they can act so well
best actresses awards.
so xi guan jiu hao
cos already numbed.

now i cant really differentiate the gd & bad
so everyone's neutral

maybe used to be too silly
thinking that if u are gd to ppl
they will be gd to you too

i wont use my heart to feel anymore
i wont give my feelings and says
i have no words to describe how i felt

and dun think that when ppl are good to you means they are good
and dun think that when ppl are bad to you means they are bad
just stay neutral
and never get feelings invovled

so dun be surprised that
one day u'll see the 'cold' side of me

Less talks
Less communications
Less time spent
Less of everything
somehow i dun like the feeling
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Goodbye 2008, Welcome 2009.

But still i dont really feel that it's a new year.

It was just another normal day and another year

the only change is that 2008, 2009.

and all of us will have their birthdays coming again

and then cny

and then all the other holidays and occasions

over and over again

repeating all over

but life still goes on

and have to work

so much of it

and i do not know if i'll still be in my current job

hope that this new yr- 2009

will be a better yr

peace, happiness and good health ahead. =)

how much do you care?
have you ever cared?

well

not a good girl
not a good daughter
not a good sister
not a good dancer
not a good worker
not a good-tempered girl
not a good friend
not a good person

dun get close to me
cos i'm jus good for nothing

hav you ever felt so comfortable saying anything

simply any little thing

without hesitating to a person?

sometimes i wanna say what i'm feeling

and the things that were kept in my heart

i want to say

but...

the thought that i'm gg back to my sec sch tmrw
is kind of so fascinating and so filled with hope
i'm so excited
i'm happy too
but also
i'm a little afraid
i dunno how to describe

not visiting my teachers or anything else
but for something
something, quite serious
i really dunno where my future lies but
i'm full with passion this one time
something which i think i will like and think will enjoy doing
but i'm not sure if it will be a success

this once familiar place
the environment and things
where i spent for 4 years
when i was much younger
still growing and learning
that's the place

but i should not hope too much
cos the more i hoped
the more disappointing it will be
if it turns out bad

but still i'm soo soo excited
think i cant slp tonite..

ha
it's sun
tmrw's mon
gonna work
then tue
wed
thur
fri
sat and
sun
again, another wk's gone
time's passing fast
hav u treasured the time?

you are you and I am I,
you do your things and I'll do mine too,
and if in the end we meet up together,
it is beautiful.