i always wanted an elder sister
i really want...
i envy ppl who has elder sister

one who can dote on me
one who at least have that little care for me
someone to talk to
share my probs, happiness, sadness
give me a hug when i'm down
comfort me in times
play with me
when i cant get into slp
sleeping in the same room
jokes and little secrets
going out together
sharing the many things
take care of me


this had been in my heart for some time

i'm not a touchy person
but i just love the feel of holding ur hand
but not many times
we get the chance holding hands
but everytime
ur hand in mine
it never fails to give me the sisterly feel
that i always were looking for
so protected
so comfortable
not anyone can give me this feeling
but u did.

Still remember,
the trip,
during the performance
backstage where lots of ppl
we needed to pass through to get to the other side of the stage
u grabbed my hand
and lead me safely to the place that we need to standby
pushing through the lots of people
still hand in hand
i'm touched
seriously.

Maybe u felt nothing but
that little act
it really warms my heart
and means something to me.

i wont tell u in person
cos i dunno how to put this across
and maybe is this
that made me care a little more about u