Well, today was shitty at work
that colleague of mine
either take leaves or MCs
can really MCs so many days?
last wk took 2 days MCs
yesterday took urgent leave
today took MC again
what she want?
i'm really pissed
got so much work to clear for my own
and still have to cover hers
piling up and more to come
i'm gg super crazy
my mood gets extra hot.
at a point of time i think i cant breathe
my breath just stopped.
my mind just blanked
my eyes and ears just shut

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the usual same route back home
the 5 min walk from the mrt to home
today i actually took 20 min
many things running through my mind
i cant think.

i seriously dunno what i wanted
i seriously not feeling very happy
i seriously dun even know what i'm feeling inside myself
i cant see the future
i cant imagine
my visions are blurred
i have no directions anymore

but still i have to pretend to be strong
i'm tired
i dunno myself anymore